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The Job in hand
It’s my ex-husband’s fault. Though he started out all nice and lovey-dovey, as time went on,
he began to assert his more controlling side. I felt, at times, that he wanted to completely rule
my life.It started off with small things. He took charge of driving the car, of deciding what things we should buy for the house, then didn’t like me going out with my friends. He made such a fuss that I had to give in. From my point of view, our sex life degenerated, with him dominating the bedroom. He seemed to get what he wanted from me, but I was a mere puppet. Eventually, things broke down. I stood up to him. There were a series of blazing rows, then he just up and left. A few weeks later I discovered he had found a new woman. I retreated into myself and got on with life. I can’t say I missed the sex, as with him it was not satisfying for me. I suppose my sexual confidence had crashed. I didn’t want to get back into the regular boyfriend thing. I had lost my confidence in men and wondered if I would be able to stand up to them if they tried to dominate me as my husband had. I had no interest in women as sexual partners, so that avenue was out. I saw a documentary on television about sexting. It fascinated me. A few days later I went onto the Internet and searched for ‘adult chat rooms’. Julie's books are available on Amazon.com, amazon.co.uk and other amazon outlets. Books are nice but you can also get them on Kindle. Read an Extract |